The Playboy kingpin, Hefner 89 is described as pathetic, predatory, emotionally manipulative, and a disappointing lover in Madison's newly-released book Down The Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures And Cautionary Tales From A Former Playboy Bunny.
She says life in the Mansion became so depressing that she even contemplated suicide. And s#x with Hefner was the most 'disconnected experience' of her life.
Hitting back at the allegations in an interview with Us Weekly, Hefner insists it is all fiction,
concocted by Madison 'in an attempt to stay in the spotlight'.
He said:
'Over the course of my life I’ve had more than my fair share of romantic relationships with wonderful women. Many moved on to live happy, healthy and productive lives, and I’m pleased to say remain dear friends today.
Sadly, there are a few who have chosen to rewrite history in an attempt to stay in the spotlight. I guess, as the old saying goes: You can’t win 'em all!'The dispute comes 15 years after Madison, 35, met Hefner. She is now married to Electric Daisy Carnival organizer Pasquale Rotella, 41, with a two-year-old daughter, Rainbow.
Then a 20-year-old Hooters waitress and high school drop-out, she was out clubbing with girlfriends in Los Angeles when the Playboy founder approached, Madison writes in her book.
He introduced himself, she says, by offering her a Quaalude from a tissue in his pocket. Once she made it to a party at the mansion, she says, it became clear he wanted to sleep with her.
'I knew when I accepted the invitation to go out with them that I was getting into something racy,' Madison writes. 'Even though I knew these girls probably had s#x with him, it seemed very humorous and light.'According to an extract read by the New York Post, Madison recounted her shock at Hefner's behavior in the VIP room of the club where they were partying.
'Oh my God,' I thought, genuinely mortified for him,' Madison wrote.It was only later, she said, that she found him to be emotionally manipulative, refusing to let her see a psychiatrist for depression and barring her from getting a job or having genuine interaction with the outside world.
'Had no one told him how silly he looked? I felt a bit sorry for him dancing around like the punch line to a bad joke.
'Back then, he seemed like such a sweet man to me, and this felt unnecessarily cruel.'
After leaving the VIP room, she had her first sxual encounter with Hefner.
'Much to my surprise, my turn was over as quickly as it started,' Madison writes.Madison said she remembers feeling 'really sh----' the following day, but still asked Hefner to move into the mansion.
'By the time I was able to wrap my head around what was happening, Hef had already moved on to Candice, then to a few of his actual girlfriends before finishing off by himself, as he always did.
'I have never had a more disconnected experience. There was zero intimacy involved. No kissing, nothing. It was so brief that I can't even recall what it felt like beyond having a heavy body on top of mine. Needless to say, for me, sxx was never the highlight of the relationship.'
'That might seem counterintuitive — ''I'm not into it, but I'll come back for more'' - but I felt stuck in my life, trying to make ends meet,' Madison wrote.
'I lost the lease on my apartment. I felt like I'd already thrown myself to the wolves, so I might as well reap the rewards and not just be one more slut who walked through those doors.'
The aging house was in various stages of disrepair, and the carpet was permanently stained with urine from Hefner's dogs. The bedrooms had old, cheap beds and dressers.
The girlfriends - who had a strict 9pm curfew on nights they didn't go clubbing with Hefner - secretly kept boyfriends on the side, and would tape up the air vents in their room so they could smoke meth without anyone knowing.
Every bathroom had a tray with Vaseline, Johnson's Baby Oil and Kleenex.
Hefner had an open account at the José Eber Salon in Beverly Hills, where the girls could go to get their hair done and have beauty treatments whenever they liked.
He would also pay for any plastic surgery they wanted, and gave them a $1,000-a-week clothing allowance.
'Frankly speaking, I've always been pretty uncomfortable with Hef's fascination with extremely young women,' Madison writes in the book.
'He was obsessed with women looking as young as humanly possible. Everything — absolutely everything — about that skeeved me out.'Part of the rules of the house was that the girls could not work, and Madison soon became incredible bored, which started a spiral of depression. One day, in an effort to do something with her time, she decided to clean up Hefner's filthy room.
However in her organizing she came across a video that was labeled 'Girl and Dog'.
'My stomach turned,' Madison said.As time went on, Madison became more depressed.
'I was like, 'What the hell is this?'''
'There were days I woke up and just felt like falling to the floor because I felt so depressed,' she wrote.Hefner would not let her see a psychiatrist, fearing the doctor would just tell Madison to leave the mansion.
She ended up seeing one behind his back, and realized that Hefner chose girls that were vulnerable.
'We were all young,' Madison says. 'He wasn't interested in women over 28. None of us were from a big city or affluent backgrounds. None of us had ever seen the darker side of the entertainment industry.'During her depression, Madison thought about ending her own life, according to Us Weekly.
'Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn't a dream at all and quickly became her nightmare,' the release continued.
'After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.'The book also reveals the 'oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and [her] battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies.'
Culled from DailyMailUK